..Well more like 361.5 bits of confession. Yeah I managed to gain weight in spectacular form over the past few weeks, back to where I was at in, oh, March. There's no point in dwelling and beating myself up (believe me, been there, done that) but I've gotta do.
Same thing with the Dirty Kanza 200. I had been on the fence, quit it mentally several times, then finally came to the conclusion that I've gotta do it. Not in 2010, but in 2009. I can make excuses in 2009 too, I'm sure, but I've gotta do.
Those two add up, together, because there's this part of me that doesn't like to fail. I think all of us have it, but when I really set out to do something I really don't like to fail. I've kind of fiddlefucked around with the weight loss thing over the fall/winter, and look where it's gotten me? 30 extra pounds. Ouch. Hitting that "300 lost" before Kanza would have been awesome, and still could be (6 months left, 15 lbs a month...).
If you've been reading this blog awhile you know that for the past couple months I've been kind of just treading water, not really doing much. I set my mind to change that, and it happens for a day or two... then back to the treading. And the beer. And the cookies.
Let's see if maybe, just maybe I can make something happen. Because it'd be pretty cool to complete Kanza, and show that anybody - even me, who is as human as they get - can lose some weight and complete a ridiculously grueling bike ride.
Maybe.
3 comments:
Anyone who's been reading your blog for a while knows you can do it and you can *DO IT*.
Downtime is usually a good thing, because it gives one a chance to harden one's perseverance. The weather's pretty good here in the Star City these days...
--BF.Net's J.C. Koto
As someone who has battled the bulge for oh these many years, I feel your frustration. BUT you've also managed to achieve major successes, so you have to stay positive and go forward, forward, forward. And as for the 200, this is the year. Why not?
JCK - Thanks Hombre! I plan to, at least, if I ever want to have a beer again. I like beer. Part of the plan I didn't outline is that if the beer causes me to go over the "magical line", then I gotta give it up until I lose 20 pounds UNDER the line.
I'm my own worst enemy, I swear.
Every day is a good day to ride, even today. It was cold, sure, but the whole time I thought "dang, I'm glad I'm not driving"
Tex69: Amen! I'm feeling it this year. Just like last year (2007) I felt the magical 200 lost and busting below 400 (finally), this is the year for the 267.
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